Pity party...table for one.

The question, "what happened to adding your thoughts to the blog" has come up quite a bit lately. First off, thanks for actually taking the time to read the blog. Second, thanks for commenting and giving me ideas for things you want to see and read. For the past 3 years the blog has been a means of communication for family and friends to see the girls as they grow up. The past 3 months, it has been my therapy. When I am stressed out I find myself pounding my frustration away in keystrokes and writing down my thoughts so that I can vent without anyone else having to join my "pity party" because...quite frankly...these minor annoyances are quite superficial in a house where I am blessed with 3 healthy, happy children, a husband whom I respect and adore and who reciprocates that respect and adoration, and a healthy body that at the end of the day is blessed with exhaustion from all of the incredible experiences we have in a day. However, I have been feeling very judged in my decisions lately so I have found myself pouring my heart into the keyboard. At the end of it all,  I am faced with the options of  "publish post" or "save as draft." The truth is, I have been blogging quite a bit lately, but most of my posts are rather insignificant for the public eye so they are saved as drafts to be published or deleted at a later time. I type up my frustrations and once my head is clear, I return to my posts and reread them with more clarity. Some days, I find peace knowing that I've had similar days in the past and I managed to find sunshine at the end of it. Other days, I laugh at how absurd a problem seemed and giggle at the fact that something so trivial could get me all bent out of shape. I have been struggling lately with motherhood, friendships and health, and I find that the best way to approach these things is with patience and a clear head. Therefore, I will continue to blog my thoughts and save them as drafts, but in the meantime...this party is moving outside to a table for anyone who wants to join. I'll add a few of my thoughts from the 9/11 anniversary, but since my intentions of actually publishing my thoughts were non-existent they are more of ramblings and random fragments strung together so bear with me.