Running

"Any teenage boy can tell you, though, that the body has a mind of its own. It has its own rhythms and cycles, its own tides. One of the things that happens when you become serious about running is you know that sometimes, no matter what you do, no matter how well and how smart you train, your body is not always going to perform the way you want it to. You will not only have bad days, you will have bad weeks and sometimes, months." - Rachel Toor

I am keeping this in the back of my head as I start my running. Starting anything new is always a shock to my system. I believe I am biologically wired to be resistant to change. Just last summer I went out for runs and would come back after about 3-5 miles feeling refreshed and ready for anything. This morning at the end of my run I was discouraged by the fact that my workout, was most peoples warm up. My muscles ached (not the good kind), my lungs burned, my head pounded, I could barely catch my breath. It was not enjoyable. I looked as though I had just finished a marathon, minus the runners high of crossing the finish line. The truth is...I had only run one mile. I know goals are not achieved without hard work, but I am an excuse maker. (The baby was awake last night so I'm too tired, the girls woke up early so I couldn't run, It was too busy of a day today to find time to work out, etc.) I am trying to remind myself that each time I re-introduce myself to running, I hate it. I am trying to relive my last summer where I got to the point that beating the pavement was therapy. I am trying to remember how running gave me the freedom to find myself. I.am.trying. Here's to a long 365 days.